I went in on Thursday and changed my major... I am now majoring in History. And while that puts me back a semester, at least I will be able to take some really cool classes, classes that I might actually enjoy while I am here at school. I went and found out that I already (at the end of this semester) have a communications minor and am only a couple of classes away from a business minor. Needless to say, I was fairly happy.

It has been raining for the last week, nonstop, but this is good because it looks like they are going to open the resorts in the next week or so. Things were really looking on the up and up...

But then I lost my job. Yup... BYU has made some budget cut backs and have once again found a way to screw everyone over (by "everyone" I mean me). So... once again a dark cloud of depression has settled over me and the only silver lining that exists will attract lightening, ending my pitiful life.

So I guess I'm in the job market. I'm sure I'll find something out there... but with my luck... who knows what could happen. I knew I should have made more sacrifices to Molech this last month.

Elections are coming up in 11 days... and I'm sure that whichever candidate wins will send us into the beginning stages of Armegeddon. I wish Edwards was running instead of Kerry... Anyways, I was watching Bowling for Columbine last night on T.V. with a couple of people and we ending up having a political conversation for almost 3 hours. It is interesting that I am the most liberal person in the conversation, and I have realized this happening more and more often.

Anyways, I went to MichaelMoore.com to see if they had a bibliography for the movie, similar to the one that he has for 911. He doesn't, but there is a really funny article that he wrote. Maybe having gone to see him speak in the last week makes it funnier for me, because he actually does the underwear and ramen thing... but here is the link:

http://www.michaelmoore.com/words/message/index.php?messageDate=2004-10-06

Anyways... this is my life. Amen

My life is pretty much still in shambles, I don't really know what I am going to do. Do you know how hard it is to find motivation to go and participate in my Communications classes when I know that I am, most likely, not going to graduate in. I guess I will get the best grade that I can, but that will only be for my personal gratification, seeing as it doesn't really matter.

We had this sweet BBQ at work today. One of our supervisors brought elk steaks in, which I have never really been fond of, but this time they were pretty good. We had all sorts of junk, yada yada yada. And I was on the clock... so everything worked out ok.

I was reading Reid's blog, and a comment by Jackie, which said that we need to confront people about stuff. Personally while I think that it is good to be forward with people, I don't know if that is always the best option. I resently read a book called the "Art of War" by Sun Tzu which talks about this. He explains many times the best way to win a battle is to win it before it starts, without conflict. I think this applys to life situations, it is always better to take preliminary steps, such as diplomacy (i.e. doing nice things, saying nice things, etc), to prevent a battle from beginning in the first place. Also, "Don't fight the battles you can't win." In my opinion it would be foolish to confront someone on something that there could be no resolution to, or something they can't change. Anyways, I was just thinking about it, and while confrontation is sometimes necessary, I don't know if it always is. But, I would take anything that I say with a grain of salt 'cause, let's face it, I'm not all that bright... I mean... I can't even get into a major...

But history is sounding more and more appealing... I'm still going to appeal everything, but I doubt that they will make an exception for me... I know my own luck. But if I graduate with a degree in history and a minor in communication and business, I think that I will be fairly marketable upon graduation. There is always the option on getting an internship doing Marketing/Advertising anyways, and just go from there to a job in that field.

All I know is that upon my graduation, when they have all of them little guys call me up asking for Alumni Donations, I am going to say one of three things:

1. "I already pay my tithing" or
2. "I tried to get into several of your programs here at BYU, and evidently they didn't want me... anyways, I already made a donation to Sacred Heart and Notre Dame" or
3. "Screw you"

blah, blah, blah... Amen

So, I got rejected from my major yesterday. That really sucks because I literally have no clue what I am going to do with my life now... and am really reaching towards not really even caring anymore. The reason I went into the Advertising major is because it's in the Communications dept. (the dept. all the athlets go into) is because it's really easy, everyone gets accepted... but once again I have proved that, not only am I a bad student, I'm a horrible person. I've come to accept this.

My mother has made me promise not to do anything rash or stupid, so my desire to drop out and move into Jones' camper in Montana on 5 acres of land, working in a mine-shaft and blowing stuff up with the 2 boxes of dynamite he recently aquired are put on hold.

I'm going to appeal the decision and find out what is going on by the 20th of this month, then probably change my major to History, or another major if I can find one that requires less credits. I think history is my best bet... and then I can graduate and do... you know... those things that people with degrees in history do... like continue laying carpet, or join a plumbers guild, or... you know... something like that.

No... actually I'll probably go to a grad program. Become a professor? Reid is going to London or something to get a masters in 10 months or something like that. Maybe that could be neat. There are a whole lot of maybes going on... and somewhere I'm probably going to have to figure it all out...

I'm open to any suggestions for anything... hmmm... chef?